wat i can think of...

hope this will ease her pain... and clear our mind a bit :

• 1st step is to review back all her changes. i've been thinking over and over again, it is too much for her to face all challenges at one time. culture shock gitu!
• we invite her to joint bed with us again, boleh tido peluk2 lagi.. to ease her sadness, in fact we missed her that much!! tho bilik dia sume dah ready dgn cun nya, let it be there 1st. the time will come when she's set to be separated. people said she will request for it. sbb dia sendiri akan rasa sempit. thru enuf, when she's in between us dia mintak both of us hug and sleep tight together. sanggup dia tunggu aku tidokan dani, then slowly put my son tido dlm baby cot dia. she sit and watch me did that patiently, sanggup tak minum susu lg (nak tunggu ibu dulu, so she hold the bottle dulu...terharu aku ,tetiba jd org penting dlm hidup dia!) pastu smile and sleep with happy face! esok paginya bangun kurang skit ragam nak pergi school...though bunyi2 gak nyanyian radio buruk dia, but not too sedih aaa.
• then after school for this few weeks igt nak entertain her, bawak la ke mana pun. so far pegi taman sampai before maghrib dah balik rumah...tak berjaya gak sbb bila malam ja dia mula fikir pasal esok kena pegi school dah! so bila malam2 dia happy, tak la teringat and menangis sampai time nak masuk tido. cikgu cakap dia tak menangis time buat aktiviti kat sekolah, sume dia enjoy...tapi biasa la time hantar dok nampak parent surely tunjuk sedih. bila ptg aku sampai tengok baik punya dok main berlari ngan kwn2, masuk kereta dia start nangis tanak gi school esok! ayyookkk... mana tak pening... so bunyi2 tu meleret2222222 sampai ke bilik tido... penat wehhh. sungguh penat tgk dia centu. so bila kita lekakan dia dgn aktiviti mlm, paling tidak pun esok pagi pulak baru dia nak nangis... buat sementara ni me and hubby akan puasa dinner kat rumah. at least sampai dia dapat kurangkan stress, slowly we get back on track.
• saturday both of us keje half day...so we send them to nenek's house. at least tak la dia rasa terus2 terpisah dgn nenek yg selama ni dok jaga dia kan. lagipun on saturday tak ramai budak pegi school sbb parents pun byk yg cuti, lagi dia rasa sunyi pulak kan. kat rumah nenek selalu weekend ada cousins yg balik... happening skit dia rasa.

so this is what i can think of at this moment. budak, sementara nak besaq centu aaa... kita la kena ikhtiar nak susun atur cemana hidup depa untill they can think on their own. ada ka sekali tu dia mintak aku tak payah pi ofis sbb "ibu kan pain lagi, dalam perut ibu tu ada baby kan...duduk rumah la jaga miaaa..." aadddoooiii!!! fenin aku nih... then bila dia nak pi rumah nenek, aku cakap nenek takder dia pergi jalan2 rumah sedara, dia rayu pulak "suruh la maktok jaga mia, mia promise tak notty lagi" ... budak nih... and paling kelakar bila both of us cakap ibu n ayah kena gi work, nanti takder duit cemana nak bawak mia jalan2 beli toys...she replied "ni dalam beg ada duit dah, cukup la!" sambil amik wallet aku and hubby dia bukak tunjuk. tepuk dahi la kami! pergh! alkisahnya damia...kalo esok dia dah faham akan aku paksa dia bukak blog ni dan baca sume songeh dia yg aku coretkan. baru dia tau betapa fening kepala nak melayan keletah and kerenah pemikiran budak2 tatkala ini. hihihiihhiii...

sangat suka tersepit di tengah2 kami, macam parents dia sorang saja la kiranya.

but she loves her brother so much. GEWAM!!