Nervous!

Finally, after 4days ronda2 area Kota Dsara, Mutiara Dsara, D'sara Utama n Tmn Tun ni, dapat la final destination nursery utk anak2 aku! syukur alhamdulillah, tempat tu menepati citarasa dan memuaskan hati aku seadanya... well, in the 1st place mmg presentation director dia quite impressive, as usual to sell the place la katakan. but after 1hour borak2 (and kat sini paling lama borak rasanya kot!), the click is there. naluri ibu aku berkata yes, this should be the rite one at the moment. insya allah harap2 sume selamat. aku rasa selesa, selamat, friendly, tak pack and bersih.

sepanjang aku mencari2 school for my kids, aku bawak damia sekali... dani tinggalkan kat umah mak, minta tolong jaga jap for 2-3 hours. seronok layan si kakak tu, soal jawab mcm2 and she's so excited bila jumpa cikgu2 kat sume school yg kami singgah... most of the teachers claim that she's too mature for her age. hihihiii... rasanya ada dlm 10 tempat yg aku dapat masuk and interview, dan 5 tempat aku call jer. but ada yg tak amik baby, ada yg kuota for baby dah penuh, ada yg montessori half day session jer... ada yg sgt tidak menariks, ada yg agak sorok2 tak bagi aku masuk ushar dalam (apa hal??), ada pulak yg sgt pack and kelam and tidak menaikkan nafsu aku nak hantar anak ke situ, ada yg tadak budak melayu pulak, makan minum cemana nanti ek?? halal kerrrr, ayoks!!... and ada yg tk mampu nak bayar sbb very costly mcm nak masuk uni jer yuran dia! hehehee... cerewet kan aku nih?? ish, tapi mmg aku very particular (and rasanya sume org pun akan cerewet mcm aku) bab2 ni! anyway too early to say so many good things bout this child care place, but anyhow there must be a starting point. esok nak pegi register bebudak tu and we will enroll them immediately. as for dani i'm not too worry 'bout his feelings, too small to cry for being handed over to strangers arm (as he understand why am i doing that for), tapi pasal safety n cleanliness la... baby kan sensitive! tapi tgk gaya tempat tu agak strict n buat aku rasa confident sikit. but my concern is more on her sista damia, hati dia tak tetap lagi tu, maklum la tk pernah tinggal ngan org luar. masa dia 10bulan, aku hantar dia, kami sesama nangis! dia dah kenal org, and ada ragam yg kdg boleh faham kdg tidak, so aku pun agak pilu di situ tgk dia nangis sungguh2! sapa tak sayu weiiii.... ahahhaa... aku balik umah, tk pegi keje terus! pehtu call mama reyau2 citer hal berpisah ngan anak... lawak toi! tgh hari, aku ronda dpn nursery tu, tak dapat tgk anak, tgk bumbung tmpt anak tinggai pun jadi la. muahahaha... so azam aku kali ni aku akan lebih kuat, sbb damia dah besar she need some pengisian dlm jadual harian dia, and to mingle around and be ready untuk masuk dunia belajar next few years. and dani pulak aku rasa tk nangis kot, sure tido ja kenet tu! harap2 sume ok la... tapi masa aku kemas2 school bag diaorg tadi terasa gak sayu di hati ni... mcm nak hantar anak pi oversea ja, mcm tak balik2 pulak! but again aku berfikir lebih tentang damia's feeling.... barang2 pun cuba cari yg ikut citarasa dia, and give option jugak, mana tau kalo dia nak yg lebih kurang mcm kawan2 punya ka, paling tidak tak la dia rasa terpinggir. dah la esok 1st day, byk benda celaru dlm otak dia. tp kalo dia relax n cool mmg miracle sungguh! harap sgt sume tu berlaku. ntah2 aku yg hantar diaorg half day ja esok, aku yg tak betah dok umah sensorang! ekkekeekek... kita tengok la nanti cemana. only God knows... hmmm...